There comes a point where we realize that there are no longer any external factors for us to blame. Nobody is at fault and nothing that has happened to us is responsible for our current state. When we realize that the common factor in our whole experience, good or bad, has been us all along, we come to the end of the season of discover. We realize that all along we have been stuck in a perspective that has kept us from being our authentic selves.
At first we do not know what to do. We are angry that we have let ourselves be here so long but we are also amused. We don’t know what to do and are content for the moment to stay put and laugh at our “stuckness”.
Once we realize how much power we have given away to other people, things and situations, we see that we have been giving up our own energy and it has not served us. We decide that we want to use our energy for our own benefit. We have had enough and are taking our power back. We deserve so much more than we have been accepting. The transition form Stage 3—Stuck in a Perspective to Stage 4—Reclaiming our Power is the shift from the season of Discover to the season of Transform.
The Season of Transform contains stages 4 to 7 of the Twelve Stages of Healing. In these stages we are working with the energy that we have used to disown and separate parts of ourselves and parts of our bodies, keeping us small and separate from our greatness. We are looking for the patterns we have created and changing them. We are breaking our habits and getting rid of things that do not serve us and adding new habits that serve who we are becoming.
With our power back we gain the courage to face the energy of the fears that have kept us separate from ourselves. We go beyond the veil, the illusion of that which we were so afraid and see that there was nothing scary beyond it. We merge with the very energy that we were trying to protect ourselves from. Stage 5 is Merging Beyond the Illusion. We may not know what we merged with but we get a sense that something major has happened. We don’t know what it is but we know it’s good.
As we enter Stage 6, we prepare to discharge all the energy that supported the illusion that was not us. We begin to build chi in readiness but we keep the chi inside us. We build up so much energy that it becomes hard to contain but we contain it. We just observe and experience the sensation of having energy coursing through our bodies without having to do anything with it. Stage 6 is Preparation for Discharge.
Stage Seven is Discharge. It is the actual discharge of all the energy and vibration that which we identified with but was never us to begin with. We build up the energy until we can no longer contain it. Then we discharge it by making the sound of that energy and vibration until there is nothing left.
At the end of stage seven, all the energetic resonance of that which was not us and kept us from our true selves has been discharged and leaves us as an empty vessel, ready to be filled with something new. At that point the Season of Transform is complete and we are ready to move into the Season of Awaken.
